a nightmare would be a life without you

I'm Hungry
Tuesday, November 30, 2004 2:22 AM

Ignore my blog entry title. I suspect my brain is seriously sapped to dare to type such a ridiculous title. =) I am actually not very hungry. I'm just lusting for snacks and chocolates, that's all. I'm such a greedy rabbit. (Rabbits eat alot lor!) I shall not binge and steal little yum yums from anywhere just because my stomach says it's "hungry". I don't want to end up fat and pudgy. =P

Wait.

I already am. Awwiex.

Actually, I blogged because I know I'm gonna miss blogging in the mornings. =) You guys notice that I rarely blog in the evenings or at night these days. That's good. Because that means I have got a life! =D Applause please!

Oh well... I hope four days of shopping, roller coasters, and sleeping on huge beds in a high class suite will be worth it. That's FOUR days of missing my dearie... ... Aww! But my dearie will always be in my heart (and wallet). =P

I hope I can see Wei Sheng for one last time before I'm off on a TAXI (My dad just told me and I'm every inch as surprised as you are about the strange arrangement! It's not a coach?!) to the capital of Malaysia (with the smog and all) Kuala Lumpur.

=S Today is possibly the last last last day I can meet him because... ... He has prom tomorrow... So... =X

I'LL MISS YOU DEARIE!

What I am now going to say is SO totally anti-climax and unrelated, but nevertheless...

I adopted a tempura foetus... It's cute. =)

Tempura is fried prawn by the way. Totally Jappy style fried the way I like it. I am reminding myself that Wei Sheng cannot eat prawn... Awwiex. So we can adopt one and not worry about it being tempting to cook! ^^v

I named the adopted Tempura foetus- FRIED YUM YUM. And here he is!

I adopted a cute lil' tempura fetus
from Fetusmart! Mmm..yummy.

Isn't he cute?!

Wei Sheng, just look at FRIED YUM YUM whenever you miss me... =) Oreo you!

Moving on to something strange I realized.

I was reading my blog entries from like ages ago... Possibly when I was in Secondary One. And I realized one very important thing... ...

Drumroll please!

*Insert drumroll*

I was irritatingly complicated.

Not that I'm not now lah. But... I was a very complicated person then. For one thing, I barely understand myself then. Which means either:

a) Carrie has become stupid (which cannot be true since I can solve the I.Q 180 game.)
b) Carrie used to be bombastic and spoke in cheem English very much like... ... The mushroom Cheong. This means she used to be super wary of people and their intentions, guarding herself more, but attacking others less compared to the Carrie now who guards herself ALOT as well as ATTACKS at the same time (Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps.)

I think it's option B.

People change. I know. I've said that like what...? A thousand times? More? I don't know. I know I've changed. Haha. But to now look at myself and say I was a freakingly irritating brat...?

=) Looks like being bitterishly sour isn't as bad being horribly freaking irritating.

I also read Wei Sheng's archived blog entries from his Secondary Three days and it's interesting... Because he has changed a whole lot since then too. (Which most probably is the time I first got to know him. Can't remember though.) I do remember when I first got to know Wei Sheng, he always suaned me and I didn't quite like talking to him. But weird things happen. Like the one that is happening now. I'm missing him already! =X Aww.

Weird things aren't necessarily bad lah. Like test tube babies...!

But don't worry dearie... I won't have test tube babies lah. I'm just saying they aren't that bad. Not as bad as they seem to be. =D And if we get married, I won't make you sleep on the floor. ^-^

I will blog later- that is if time and fate permits lah. =P I don't believe in fate by the way... ... I just wrote that for fun.

**carrie** (loves weisheng) and (will surely miss him a helluva lot!)

twilight between sunday and monday
Monday, November 29, 2004 5:00 PM

yup i'm blogging a bit early today. just making sure i don't get too tired to blog. hmm... carrie should be on but she izn't. i guess her sis prolly bugged her again or she got tired (and now she'd be sleeping in her comfy bed while i'm blogging =D). oh well, as cherlynn said, -points at my chest- she's there in my heart =P haha. always.

well i finally managed to place my 12 choices for jc courses. as in like, almost before final time. at like 5 a.m in the morning after thiking for 2 hours on saturday morning. totally tiring. firstly i have to try for a good jc, secondly i have to make sure i at least get to a jc and course i want. so i put SA for my first choice although i got more than the points just to try out for this jc. then i put pj, so its possible i'm going to pj if the weird computer that settles our scores flies pass the 13 points area for admission to sa. oh well. mainly its quite ok lah. not sa then is pj loh. everything else i hope doesn't need to matter much in the decision.

oh yea zero's gonna be playing for an audience of about 200 in a hotel! woo hoo! 200 sgraduating students of dunearn that is. well at least its a start! experience is very important for a band. i don't really mind going to all the trouble transporting the drums and the amp to the area just to jam. its graduation! what's a graduation without a band yea? i hope we don't screw up anything. everything turns out fine. and if possibly (possibly) one of our teachers or principal decide to change industries and lap up money from the music scene they might give us a contract =D

anyway! mainly just woke up today at about 11 i think (yes, comfy in bed while carrie was blogging) after being woken up by carrie (thanks again dearie), then decided to go ice skating. well, i would have put an exclamation mark instead of a full stop after the word "ice skating" but for some weird reason the rink was closed for some competition. tough luck! not only for us but for some other poor families too who went there covered in their warm jackets expecting to have some fun. some other time pherhaps. well we then decided to go bowling, after i conviniently (2 bus stops away) picked up my electric from my house. didn't do very well but at least it's a start after what seemed like years (months) of studying. don't feel like continuing that cca thou. well then went to orchard to pick my tie. took less than 15 minutes haha! went into far east, just picked a cheap $5 tie from some ulu rack can liao. better than the $130++ one from taka. after that went for jamming prolly our final jamming session before the big kahuna at bukit timah, after sending carrie to the mrt. nothing much after that, went to eat kfc again for garlic popcorn chicken woooo hooo! and 50 cents more for weisheng's cheeze "with garlic pepper" fries.

well gonna go off now. i'm hoping to see carrie again before she leaves, but with my prom and everything its gonna be hard. well -points at my chest again-. haha! oh man, cherlynn's lameness really got to me. still really gonna miss her thou. well gonna sign off now. hope carrie's not having bad dreams again. shall msg her before i sleep again about garlic chicken. u know what they always say about garlic on evil! =D

_weisheng_ (will miss carrie)

"wow. why would it be called mos (mosque) burger if its not hallal." - jue yi

Sunday Morning Post
2:58 AM

I guess Wei Sheng is still sleeping in his comfy bed as I clackety clack my short but hard nails on the keyboard. Why? Because I'm bored. And because I'm so happy that it's the third night I didn't get killed by a girl who likes Wei Sheng. =) Cool. And it's proven. By wishing me "good garlic spice popcorn chicken dreams" I am spared from the horrors of a night of terror. So... Bye bye to that girl in my nightmares and the insanely freaking realistic feeling of being stabbed or killed. Had a dreamless sleep last night. Peaceful dreamless sleep. Thank you dearie! ^_^ I love you!

I'm leaving for KL in like... a couple of days??? I'll be on a coach to Malaysia (our darling neighbouring country) on the 01/12/2004 all the way to 04/12/2004. I will miss my dearie! I will miss you dearie!!! =(

**carrie** loves Wei Sheng- so much more now

Bad Dreams & Good Nightmares.
Sunday, November 28, 2004 3:23 AM

Been haunted recently... by bad dreams and good nightmares.

What the heck?

Yes. You read it correctly. I wrote bad dreams and good nightmares.

Repeatedly for a stretch of harassed nights, I was turning on my bed, battling not only my morning illness (my nose gets all watery after midnight if I'm still trying to sleep) but also the fear of launching into yet another worry-filled dream or a slightly better than fearful nightmare. Both of which are on equal standands regarding the "Wake the shit out of me, don't let me get a good nights rest" factor.

It's freaky that I keep getting similar dreams with similar endings. Yet, whenever I do get these dreams, even though it's freakingly familiar, it scares me.

Okay... Me! Getting scared!? What the heck. That's silly stuff... Carrie is hardly scared of anything. Well... Except falling down, swimsuits, flying insects, make that ANY insect and... BLOOD.

So... What's with a couple of bad dreams and good nightmares?

Not if you die in every single consecutive dream... Not if it's the same person killing you. And not if the person you really love either hates you or dies with you. =X It's not very romantic lor. It's scary. Freaky scary.

Haven't had nightmares in a while until recently, but for the past two days it's been okay. Not much scary stuff. No one is killing me.

But it's weird that I should get nightmares about similar stuff repeatedly.

Especially when I haven't had a nightmare or a bad dream in ages. Not since I was in Secondary One like years ago... ...

**carrie** <3 wei sheng

=)
Friday, November 26, 2004 2:01 AM

"They say you fall in love only once,
It can't be true.
Cause everytime I look at you,
I fall in love all over again... ..."

Dearie... ... I feel that way about you! =P You mean alot to me! =D

**carrie** (loves wei sheng)(lots and lots and lots and lots and LOTS.)

when weisheng blogs
Thursday, November 25, 2004 5:30 PM

hey hey! its me again, blogging at the same horrible time, but this time, its after my o's! hoooray. well, now thou i'd have to think of which jc to go for the first three months, which is quite a chore, because everyone has given me very different views on jc's that totally jumble my brain up. all i know is i want to get into a science course thou. i have like only until 27th! my band's prolly going PJ, but then if i could go to a better one why not? but then lets say if i wanna go poly after 3 months, should i be with my band or with a good jc experience? what if i get stuck to the jc and i pick SA that could move to potong pasir? (and get my parents angry) what if i end up not getting into a JC at all? ... ... hey did i mention my o's are over? hoooray!

anyway i wanted to blog today cuz i wouldn't want it to be too unfair for carrie since she's been blogging and i've not been. hey, the main reason we joined in this blog anyway. well its also after my o's, so i have no excuse to not blog now! (and a reason too =)) well mainly today, carrie helped wake me up in the morning with a wake up call (thankz dearie) at 9 but i was still a tad bit late due to the animosity between my mom and sentosa, but i managed to sneak, or more like quickly walking in hoping raja wouldn't notice, into the hall to catch the important parts of the briefing for 3 month o level administration. after that went to sentosa with cliff, faizal, jon, alex, vin and azhar for a hopelessly fun and very wet (the one that seeps into your contacts until u'd have to take them off) experience. leg scraping soccer, slippery basketball, swimming onto a weird island with seaweed all over, i wouldn't ask for more.

ok i paragraphed this because the better parts (not as if the previous paragraph was not good, this was just better) of the day came in here. took a shower, went to harbour front to join 484fm (the new gang, "si puey si" as called in hokkien), for their briefing. short but good enough, me and carrie left to try to watch a movie. what movie? i said try, i didn't say we did. we first decided on saw, so we went to cine but there wasn't any there. no prob, after that, walked to lido, (on the other side) to check out if saw was there. saw su and JC, then after much talk decided on watching shutter, so we (me and carrie) walked to Plaza Sing (pass cine again). sold out. therefore we decided to go back to lido, (pass cine again), and it was sold out. so ended our horrible leg piercing movie hunt with some nice shaker chicken (remember to get garlic because its nice) and cheeze fries with refillable drink! (i thought kfc killed all those). checked out some nice quicksilver shirts, sent carrie home. =) yea i'm smiling, because as what carrie said, its not where we go that matters.

okay i've wanted to say this long time ago but erm, since sly actually really got into the finals, this is about to get serious. to make things clear, what i'm fighting for now is the respect and the quality (and variety) of singapore's music. what i want now is for sly to go back to his band, get a good contract with his band, and really bring in the local rock music scene to the people of singapore. and that means taufik has to win. if sly wins sg idol, he needs to sign a contract with mediacorp for a few years i think, and thus he wouldn't be able to play, mainly, create a CD, with his band (violation of contract). this is bad, because sly's gonna need to have his own album, with just him on the cover, prolly singing music with only him being acknowledged instead of all the rock musicians (sidenote: sly sings very well only in rock, so his album has to be rock) who play for him. i would rather see him and his band together, not apart. taufik, that's the guy i see on the face of an album cover. his genre variety and style makes him perfect. so sly with his band and a taufik with himself. 2 great cds. taufik with no contract, sly with a single cd (with all rock). 1 cd that doesn't show sly's vocals with a real band. i mean, real as in, just 1 band. ok, if anyone actually read this (thanks) please vote for taufik. its the respect of singapore music we need to take care of. sg idol is a talent quest i see to help the music industry of asia and singapore expand. respect music, vote taufik.

hey long entry here. just alot of things to say after my o's, just mainly chucking it all out. peace!

_weisheng_ (still loves carrie)(much more now)

When Things Get Crazy
2:52 AM

Before I launch into another one of my very auntie-boring-like-freaking-hell fables which all have morals of the story, I shall briefly let you people have a peek into my life. (I shouldn't make commenting on everything else be my life what!)

Basically went to East Coast yesterday. I made sandwiches.. Hmmx... Toasted sandwiches with scrambled eggs and ham with japanese mayo. It tasted pretty good, other than the fact it should have been taken warm instead of cooled. Doesn't have the crispy 'woah' factor when it's cooled down.

I didn't realize I brought only about a few dollars out lor! After buying the sandwich ingredients, I was left with a freakingly measley 75 cents. So, poor Wei Sheng had to fork out like about 6 bucks for the taxi there because the auntie at the XXXXX MRT station didn't want to tell us where the shuttle bus was. Such a mean old auntie! =X

It was raining. Bah. Played around with the crows and like, scared them, fed them, freaked out about them. Took photos and then went to cycle. Took a double bike. =) So fun! I can't sing 'Wu Ding' manx... While we were cycling, Wei Sheng tried to teach me how to sing it and come in at the correct (read: female) parts. I kept mixing it up lah.

Ho humx... We actually found the shuttlebus and took it to Dhoby Ghaut! =)

Met Wei Sheng's friends (who were no longer in their white/blue uniforms) at Heeren! Crazy people lah! And that Wei Sheng siao lah, cover my face when I first saw Jue Yi & Brenda plus alot of other people there. Now Brenda and her mom must be thinking, Wei Sheng has a weird girlfriend with half a face. Wakaka.

Wei Sheng sent me home. So sweet of him! (Although there's an unwritten rule for guys to send girls home.) Simei lor! Haha. =P

Anyways... ...

Now for my auntie story!

You know that the world is no longer pure, innocent and round when people (read: mainly ah lians and cute little siao/xiao mei meis) go crazy over bad-boy rockers who sound pretty much like he's in need of a cough lozenger.

Oh right... That's normal lah. Stuff like that has been happening through the ages since like what, Elvis? Frank Sinatra? Maybe... GUNS AND ROSES? Oh heck... Normal. Yeah.

It's only getting weird weird when they kill fans who DON'T support their sweetiepoo bad-boy rocker. They rip, they snarl and they are totally insane. Plus, they roam our streets and sadly are mostly girls who don't seem to know how to love themselves.

Oh freak. I just forgot. Of course they don't know what's crazy and insane anymore, they are all gullible siao/xiao mei meis or else they are ah lians mar...

Note: I have nothing against ah lians, but majority show like the biting/fighting ability, you see! I'm not biased against them. Just their strange way of expressing themselves.

Wait... And there are the ones that come from the girl's school and who haven't seen a guy in ages. Right.

Note: I also have nothing against girls school girls. Just the same thing... Majority bite for no reason. Like rabid dogs you see... But then again there are the good ones that I actually know and who don't seem to have problems controlling their ferocious teeth.

What I really want to say, (no, I'm not here to offend all the girls out there lah... That's suicidal!) is that your bad-boy rocker is just human. Can you like, treat him like one, instead of idolizing him to the point whereby he's god?

And heck, can you not like get all rabid and infectious by biting those who don't agree that you're "CUTE AWW SO CUTE LEH!" idol is THE idol? Come on lor. We have our opinions. You have yours. So what if you claim "HE DAMN CUTE! I LIKE." There will always be us who say, "Whatever. Sounds like someone needs cough syrup." We're not against him. We just don't think he's gonna make the cut. So why get all defensive? The moment you cute people start getting defensive, we get defensive too. And hey! World War III...!

I shan't go on to say "REALITY TV IS EVIL!" That's something to poo-paa-pwack another day.

The moral of todays rather lengthy auntie story is, "Don't bite like a rabid dog just because we non-fans don't agree with you. It makes you look like some unreasonable *ahem*."

Right. Don't get angry... =) I never stated who, what or how. Don't infer so much. It's a pretty general scenario! Unless of course you're admitting your idol is... in need of some cough medication lah!

**carrie** hopes you won't kill her

Mind Boggling Issues
Tuesday, November 23, 2004 2:39 AM

For some reasons, guys are never really contented with what they've already got. I wonder why. I mean... I'm not saying that all are guys are like that, but I've looked and I've realized that there are the majority who take love and concern for granted. Whether it's from their parents, their dearest or their closest.

Let the lead character of this short very educational case study, A.
Let A's devoted girlfriend be B.
Let some girl A meets on his Holiday Trip be C.

Now... B is constantly pining for A while he is away on his holiday trip. She is lonely and incessantly screams out in her blog about being lonely. Now... A is away on his trip, meets C on tour and dreams about C all the time. C is now the girl of his dreams. He keeps psyching himself to think that when he wanted to take C's number, it was not for anything other than being 'just friends'.

B counts down to the time A touches Singaporean soil and decides to let him have a few minutes grace before she called him. She then gave him a call and found that his phone was not switched on. Poor B just brushes it aside. Awhile later, A returns B's call but sounds nonchalent and cold.

B is heartbroken.

So while B dreamt about A's return day in and out. B dreamt about C. And while C is never to be contacted again, B will be there for him because she loves him.

Lustful behaviour lah.

Get my drift? Guys are never contented. I cluck my tongue (although I can't seem to do that well) at A. It's irksome to think that fickleness is unavoidable. =X So we blame this on human nature. BAH. Human nature my foot. Alot of girls can only wait in the corners of their rooms for their bf and pine away for them. But guys? What do that do? Probably out jioing girls, taking their numbers and saying, "just make friends only what."

I absolutely cannot stand fickleness. =C Because although I am indecisive (which is like one of my huge flaws), I'm not fickle. Thin line, but yet, different all the same.

I pity B... Bah... Guys... Are they all like that?

I don't see the horrible-incorrigible-veggietableness in looking at other girls and maybe thinking they are pretty, but the moment you start dreaming of her day in and out... That's the limit.

Guys... When that day comes, I bet you that the moment the girl you dream of, you'll just dump your girl (if you're not haunted by guilt lah) for that third party if you knew she was available and likes you too. If you don't dump that girl... It means... Aiyo... The girl poor thing. You'll probably give her hell with that coldness in your voice. Guys. Guys. Guys. You never learn do you...

I don't mean to say that girls are not like that too, but guys, a bulk of such horrible sad broken stories come from you... For girls ah... I don't deny the existence of fickle girls, but heck, seldom lah.

=X Yes. And that is the moral of the story for today's rather long winded mind boggling installment of Auntie Carrie nags somemore and bites off alot of guilty heads. The moment you feel angry with me on this, you most probably have some major guilt issues.

**carrie** loves wei sheng

Awwiex!
Monday, November 22, 2004 11:37 AM

Haven't been blogging in like ages! So unlike me. I haven't lost interest in blogging, there has just been TOO many things to blog and too little time to do it. Been busy for the whole week and my sis is all into MapleStory recently (AGAIN), so... ...

Yeah. I know. Excuses.

My brain is like replaying again and again like looping this song, "I Was Born To Love You" by Queen. Nonstop. Nonstop. NONSTOP. Haha.

I like! This song = nice!

Clean & Green Week is finally over. =) Should wave bye bye to all the Mr. JP treats liow. Haha. Feel so pai seh. Always treating us kids.

Chatted with the teachers from Green Club. They all rock. Haha. =) Especially Mdm Rohaiya. She can do super stylo hairspraying! Haha.

Don't know if I'm gonna blog alot leh... I'm hooked on more than just that song by Queen. I'm also addicted to this brain game thing I got from the funfair. Blah... Haha. =P You've got to fit all the pieces into the slots. There are 20,000 ways to do it and I've got like 19,996 more ways to go. I'm only done with 5 different ways (caught on digital film on Soedar's cam).

=D Wish me good luck as I embark on numerous hours to crack all 19,996 more ways. With no repeats.

And I really miss my primary school buddies, PN and Stephieeeee! Omg... The last time I caught sight of them or their shadows was like in June? I miss them!!! Like HELL LOT! And I'm so so so so touched! You guys rushed here the moment you heard the flamer attacked. Oh my gawd... I'm so happy you two even cared! Oh gawd... I feel like it's been ages since we three weirdos hung out! =X

I REALLY miss those primary school days! Don't you guys miss your primary school adventures!? You know... The random trip up that dark forbidden staircase to the 'haunted' roof? The adventure pass the bee infested tree and back? The twelve O' clock games complete with the wolf? The comrades in battle (against the pesky old Chinese teachers) during very bad homework rushes before ear splitting chinese classes? And of course... ALL THAT MAD MAD STUFF WE ALWAYS DO IN CLASSES AND OUTSIDE CLASSES?

Awwiex. Most of all I can't seem to stop missing hanging out, the three of us weirdos... Making the ONLY authentic class mag, making alot of money from it, and beating all the copycat mags out there which popped out like mushrooms after Weirdos Digest came out, and of course making Miss Chia think we were so damn full of initiative. She says we were her best group of students she ever had. =)

Miss it all. Miss all those times. Secondary school isn't half as eventful (even with BGR and all) as those freaking cute primary school chubby days.

**carrie** loves wei sheng and misses pn & stephiee

Maternal Instinct
Thursday, November 18, 2004 9:28 AM

Oh my gawd.

I never never imagined I was this good with kids.

Yeah... I know I did pretty okay during the occasional dealings with children, like entertain them, that kind of stuff. But to have them love talking to me and to know absolutely what to say, what to do, how to handle them... That is some freaky maternal instinct.

Mdm Koh commented on it before we 'closed-shop'. Said I was the teacher type.

Oh no. Uh oh.

Yah. I want eleven kids, but to take care of forty crazed insane kids is... Haha. Big no no. I waved my kindergarten teacher dream bye bye and threw them all down the toilet bowl like a couple of months ago. I just don't see myself as a role model.

I was being the teacher to all the little kids today, telling them about the plants, what was red, what was green, how the garden roof worked, what was in the gardenlite mix... Stuff like that. They kinda liked me. Haha. =) The kids were like all mine to educate because Xiao Yun and Soedar were the ones who handled the big shots (freakin' lucky I wasn't needed for the interview). I love the whole talk to kids and tell them about stuff and chopping their poor cute ink infested hands with the cute vehicle embossed chops, but heck, do this for more than a couple of days and I'll probably die. But...

I have got to admit it did feel sweet though.

I talked so much, my lips were freakin' dry and my throat was like itching.

Haha. The kids were really cute. Loved them to bits. There was even this really cute girl who wanted to chop my hand more than required because I went to her booth and didn't run away from her irritating friend. =) He wasn't that irritating, just very very hyper. Hehe. I can tahan lah. After training from my sis, what is a little bit of him manx?!

Then there was this really cute kid who made me sign her booth board, so I signed lah. I signed my bunny signature and wrote, "Don't eat sharks! Ahhhh!" (Her booth was a 'Don't Eat Sharks' booth you see).

She took a look at it, said, "HUH?", and then laughed. She was so adorable! =D

Kids like me. I like kids.

Well... Or so it seems lah. Okay...

Oh and one very crazy kid said, "Auntie! Chop my hand."

I frowned and pretended to be very angry and he freaked a bit, then I laughed and said, "WRONG! I'M YOUR MOTHER LAH!"

Then they all laughed like, WAHAHAHA, and said, "Huh! Don't want lah!"

Haha. OMG. I LOVE KIDS.

The whole tending to the booth thing was pretty okay. =) Loved explaining about the roof garden although I felt lagi tired after speaking non-stop. Most of the aunties and teachers didn't mind my tongue-tied explanations. So grateful. =X Haha. I was like, "Blargh!"

Wonderful day.

Oh right... And about Cherlynn's band concert yesterday.

Cherlynn! Your band did great! And your solo... Just two words, "Beautiful lah!"

Yesterday was just as wonderful as today. =)

Things are looking up for me. I don't feel so down anymore. That's just like a big relief for me. =) See... I'm so happy I'm smiling almost every paragraph. Blah. Haha.

Oh gawd... I just remembered... Class Chalet starts today. Heck it. Don't feel like going. I'm wondering how dearie did for his Geog and Physics... =X Anxious to know if he did okay.

I think it's about time to go thank God for my maternal instincts. I have like eleven kids to mummy ah. Need this natural way with kids more urgently than anyone else. =P Haha.

And to all you crazy taggers like Stephie:

Stephie - Awwiex. Chill it lah. She's probably gonna do it again so... Just chill. =) Don't go kicking her virgin ass lah. I don't want you like banned from coming back to Singapore! Wow. And yea... You, possibly PN and wei sheng are probably the only ones left on Planet Earth to tahan me. But ah... You and PN haven't experienced my recent suanful behavior, took a turn for the worse since like September? Yeah... But I'm glad you're still around and reading my blardy blog!!! =) Well... Lots of love Stephie. Don't go kicking too many peoples' asses. Chill!

PN - Oh right! You're a Taurus too hor! Haha. I'm surprised you like watching the flow of water. =) Never knew.

**carrie** loves Wei Sheng

p.s: Awwiex... Dearie... You did a splendid job on the layout change! muackxX!

Ernie
Tuesday, November 16, 2004 3:43 PM

hey hey! its weisheng. anyway i was munching into my geog textbook halfway through the first chapter on agriculture when i felt bored and decided to look through the blog. I madea a big mistake studying manufacturing instead of agriculture in my prelims, so i'm going to try agriculture now. your prolly wondering, "TRY?", you mean weisheng hasn't tried agriculture before? and yes, i have, especially in sec3, but after the oil palm incident, i decided not to (yes, the one i mistook an oil palm picture for a durian). it was after then i realized that once u misintepret a question your effort is down the drain (like water flowing into a trench), so to be carrie's sis and stick that foot into the trench, you'd have to read carefully and answer well. Well for me i decided to stay away from agricultural questions too, but then i realized another problem to answering manufacturing questions, which is, how wide the questions can be out of the box, which is how contextural knowledge can't help much. which is why i hamtam bolah the question on jurong island (which i actually have no clue about. its not written in textbook).

Oh and about the big bird thing, i like him, but not a big fan. who wouldn't like anyone that sleeps sitting up? that's like saving alot of space! judging by his size, i'm guessing he evolved to that position due to space constraints. Well but i love ernie! when i was young all my corney jokes all came from him. he was my role model. how to irritate other people with corney answers, how to laugh like you have no teeth, signing songs. and the name's cool too. ernie. muffled voice, striped shirt, messy hair and orange tanned skin. now that's what i like. anyway not to forget! he works with big bird on "journey to ernie"! where big bird has to find ernie stuffed in some weird box. oh well, all that is over now. time if of essence especially when there's geography on wednesday, tied up with physics.

i'm trying my best to paragraph my topics as close as possible. if the person who marked my geog prelim paper moved over to cambridge and marks my paper, 1/10000000 probability, i'm going to have a hard time digesting my combined humanities marks. so i cannot paragraph too much, which is what i'm learning now. lets hope i finish my paper this time too. anyway i'm off! peace!

_weisheng_ (loves carrie)

ps: thanks carrie for changing the time for my previous post to at night. i couldn't have woken up so early. =)

The Cult Of Big Bird
12:12 PM

NEVER insult the cute, adorable and very yellow Big Bird.

I am like, super, SUPER, Big Bird fan since young. (Yesh, unlike alot of babies I almost strangled my Big Bird plushie instead of the elmo one.)

I'm a Big Bird fan and I'm proud to admit it. Also I'm not afraid to say,

"DON'T YOU BLARDY INSULT MY CUTE YELLOW FAT FEATHER DUSTER!"

Haha.

And he's not a blardy monster with feathers...

=(

Big Bird rocks. Come on... Repeat after me...

WHAT IS WITH ALL YOU PEOPLE? WHAT HAS ELMO DONE TO YOU PEOPLE? WHERE DID THE CULT OF BIG BIRD GO?

Hmmx...

I'm so sorry if I sound crack... It's almost an hour and fifteen minutes before I get my dinner... So it's no wonder I'm a mad raving crazed insane Big Bird fan... Think Kentucky Fried Chicken... *DROOLS*

Oh... That would be freakin' Heaven!

Omg... I am so screwed, but not insane yet.

**carrie** (who else can blog crap shit like this manx... And I bet Wei Sheng isn't a Big Bird fan.)

Representing me.
11:40 AM

I frankly started thinking, (seriously working my brain) about it just today when I was gazing at the drainage stretch outside my HDB unit. Yea... The place where if you washed the floor outside your unit, the water would flow in that small trench-like drainage system and run down.

My dad just poured a whole load of water down that trench and I don't know, seems weird lah, but I felt very attracted to looking at the water make it's way slowly but surely down that trench. I was just so attracted to the way the water just flowed.

Then my sister stuck her foot into the trench, blocking the water flow. And the water stopped moving.

Then I sort of woke up.

Haha.

It's so weird to think I was looking at waste water, flowing down a mini-drainage system like a baby looking at a red elmo (yeah... babies LOVE red elmos for some reason. If elmo was blue, they wouldn't like him as much. It's a baby thing).

Then I started thinking... If I could be anything in this world, I would want to be water.

Yah. This is some freaky korean type of like show where the female lead will look deeply into the eyes of the male lead and want to be some tree or bird or wind or something lah! But no... I'm not in a korean serial/movie, I'm not gonna die, and I'm not going gaga over Korean stuff at the moment... Plus I don't believe in reincarnation... It's just that I'm so freakin' fascinated with the way the water flowed. It has been haunting me since morning.

It felt familar, that fascination, because when the sun shone down on me, it felt strangely like deja vu. Some how, some where, some time, maybe in the past or something, I was looking at a similar trench in that similar sunshine, watching the water flow from the drainage system from the same angle.

Perhaps, I was holding on the that deja vu while it lasted and it wasn't the beautiful pattern of the flow that I was so attracted to. All I know was it made me feel like wanting to be one with it, for just a day.

And if you asked me now, whether water was a living thing, even though I have been a Pure Science student for a year, I will say, YES. It lives. It absolutely DOES have life.

It lives a life more exciting and fulfilling than mine. It lives a life I long to see for a day.

It is nonchalant yet concerned.

It feels like I something I know.

Because I seem nonchalant and still, I am always concerned. About people, about things, about issues.

It hurts when flooded with it, and yet without it, life stops.

This... is the part which is bit dubious.

I know I hurt people if I flood them with my character, my suanful behaviour... So everyone is better off with small amounts of me. But to say that without me, life cannot go on... That's really something to think about. I'm not saying I'm not confident of my existence, more likely that this is what I can never be. No one is irreplaceable. =) I'd rather be disposable then be tied to a responsibility like this one- without me, someone will cease to live. Because I want to be a motivation to people to live their lives rather than a reason to live.

That's different.

But then again... Even though I love looking at it, I just don't like to be engulfed in it.

Similarly, I don't like to be engulfed by myself, because, it makes me feel helpless that I am who I am.

That's why, no matter how much affinity I have with water. No matter how much I want to be water, I can never be it. Because being it would be a contradiction itself. =X

It can never represent me.

It can never represent me.

It can never represent me.

But like the stubborn and headstrong Taurus that I am, I want to live a life of water, just for a day. I love to experience... But I hate monotony of repeated experiences. That is why nothing at all can represent me.

I want to be everything when I feel the novelty of being it.

But in the long run, I want to be EVERYTHING. I want to feel everything.

That is exactly why, nothing can represent me.

Nothing can represent me.

Nothing can represent me.

**carrie**

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI SHENG!
Sunday, November 14, 2004 4:20 PM

okay... okay...

Wei sheng ah...

I know sms a bit er...

So i rewrite here. corrected. haha.

"Happy 16 Birthday!! MuackxX...
Alot of love and hope will fill your life.
Ur very impt 2 me.
Love u! =)"

Haha.

Yup. Dearie. =D HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

**carrie** (Who else lah!)

Eardrum Damage + increased Vitamin D intake
1:25 PM

Went with Belle to the SingIdol Autograph sessions today.

I actually didn't want to go... But I ended up going anyway because I was haunted by a nightmare.

I dreamt that I didn't go and... It ended with Belle getting mad with me and everything. In that nightmare, she was practically screaming at me. I was like so upset.

So when I woke up I decided... I BETTER GO TODAY.

Haha. So I did.

Jessica who also went was dressed to her nines lor! Omg... I was like anyhow put on this old black Finding Nemo T-shirt I haven't worn in ages and any old pair of jeans from my cupboard lor. Omg... Then standing next to her, Belle (who was in school skirt - yeah the distinctively brown Dunman Sec one- and her Guitar Ensemble tee) and I looked perfectly under-dressed. Haha. Oppx. =P

When we reached Plaza Singapura... It was like there was a crowd but it wasn't that bad. The sun was a-okay also and everything was just fine... But then...

The moment DJ Daniel Ong opened his big golden mouth when he swaggered on stage, dyed gold hair and all, the crowd started coming.

Before long everyone was squished lor and I never want to be part of any crowd with Sly fanatics manx... Scary people. They may be cute but blardy scary. Screaming killed my ear drums. The situation worsened when the sun started getting blistering. Vitamin D overload lor. Sweating like pigs lah all of us. Good for Belle though, she got a orange SingIdol tee admist all that chaos. I'm still wondering how she snatched that tee... Haha. Ecstatic was she! I almost caught a poster, but then suddenly another hand grabbed mine and the poster. Haha. I was like "OUCH!"

Wow. Dangerous.

Well... Didn't get the siggies they wanted, but I got the pics I wanted. Loads of them although not necessarily of the top three lah. Fruitful trip for me...

Went to Makan... I skipped my lunch. Wasn't hungry after all that siao chaos lor.

It was walking all the way from PS to Heeren to take neoprint lor. Haha. =) I like taking neoprint! Very fun! But we ulu tortoises lah we... Aiyo... We were allowed to choose 6, we chose 4 only. Why?

Because we didn't notice there was a time limit.

The neoprint turned out okay though. =D

Accompanied the two shopping queens lah before we decided to go home.

Wah... Tiring lah. =X

Tomorrow is Wei Sheng's birthday!!! Haha. =] Yay! I hope I can message him in time for his birthday. As in exactly at 12midnight! Haha. Cliched lah. =P But I don't care.

I have like all my skirts in the wash lor... So if I'm gonna go celebrate dearie's birthday tomorrow, I'll have to go borrow my mom's pink dress liow. =X Haha. She was like, "Carrie... Why you going out ah?"

I was like... "Yah... Tomorrow lor."

"But this dress quite see-through leh."

Then I told her I knew and was gonna wear a shirt under. Then she was like, "Good idea ah."

Haha. My mom cute lah she. Then she went back to experimenting with her make up... Woah. She looks young when she tries to make herself look good. Now I know why people say I some times look like my mom. After the make up, my mom turned from single eyelid to 'double' eyelid lor and her eyes looked bigger... So I realized why people said I looked like my mom. Haha... I always thought I looked alot like my dad... =X

**carrie**

my late entry for yesterday
1:35 AM

Had this super long day yesterday. =X

Probably been awake for like 13 hours yesterday! Am I like, 'on' or what?

Had to go to school for extra classes yesterday, the best thing was like I could skip three hours of redundant Chem lesson (cos I'm dropping to combined, so the topic isn't in my syllabus).

Haha... WHY COULD I BLARDY SKIP THE LESSON.

WOOHOO.

Because Mr. JP brought the three of us environmental freakos, Xiao Yun, Soedarsono and me (yesh. me too!) to the N.E.A (National Environment something lah! Maybe Agency or something.) for the media briefing.

I didn't expect that the interviews were today lor. I was like, "WHAT! Mr. Peterson! You never said anything about interviews!"

Omg. Haha.

At first when we entered the room, Soedar was like feeling out of place because all the representatives were FEMALES. haha. Poor Soedar.

But later on, of course got guys lar. Only four including him, but better than being the rose among the thorns. lolx.

I wanted to go take refreshment, but they too shy to. In the end Soedar also wanted to take the refreshment. So I went like, "See lah... bla bla bla." Haha. I'm so scary.

Xiao Yun wanted to laugh lor when she said, "Carrie ah... You like threatening Soedar leh."

After that we kena interview by Straits Times Reporter and Lian He Zao Bao. We were like er er er... Not really prepared... But we did great! Haha. I think we spooked the reporters out with info overload (coco-peat... material... medium for planting... expanded ceramic... pumice stone... Data loggers!).

Kudos of Soedar manx... His name is SO appealing to the Lian He Zao Bao lady. Haha. =)

Well.. Gonna kena tv interview on Wednesday. Yeah. It sounds cool. BUT NOT COOL! Cos I cannot speak Chinese! =X Awwiex. But at least Soedar's and Xiao Yun's chinese is power pro lah. Haha. Cover my hopeless 'bu biao zhun hua yu'.

Blah.

It ended rather early. To stall for time so that we didn't need to go back to school so early and suffer through Chem lesson, Mr. JP brought us to eat Roti Prata! Haha.

He said the Banana prata was good.

The three of us kids declined his offer. But we kena treat (AGAIN!) by him anyway. We not so scary. We just took eggs and kosongs. =)

Went back to school to do a voice recording for Mr. JP's slide presentation. Cool stuff. I sounded weird, but heck lah. Like don't I always? =P

Rushed to Zero Infinity's band jamming session. Sat next to a mad old man on the MRT who listened to Hokkien Songs very loudly on his discman and went, "LAI LO! KA GIN LO!" (come already! Faster!) at the Jurong MRT crossover to the North-South line. OMG. GOt lost. blah blah. SO CARRIE MANX. When have I ever NOT gotten lost.

It was okay at first. I was confident I could get to the place easily. BUT HECK. Something just had to give.

Boarding the 61 bus was no problem. Identifying the stop was another thing. =X

My blurness need not be mentioned. Got off at the wrong stop TWICE.

The lame thing was the first time I got off the wrong stop, I was in the same bus as Jue Yi, Zero Infinity's drummer who was also late.

Eventually reached the ulu place. Jalan Jurong Kecheil is a mad place. LIKE SERANGOON LIDDAT!

Heard them jam. They were good lor. I don't know when to clap so I anyhow humtum. Haha. I thought they did VERY well. =) Great lah!

After that they went for dinner (tar bao) at the 6th floor some weird landing near the toilets and lifts.

Cute people lah they. Haha. Now I know where Wei Sheng gets his lameness and happy from.

Haha.

After that went to the loo lah off of us. Being the only girl, something shocking to take note... WHEN GUYS WANT TO TAKE NEOPRINT... SOME CAN BE DAMN HIAO! Haha.

They came out later than me. Wahaha. =D

Jue Yi and Wei Sheng especially. VERY VERY VERY long ah. Don't know do what in toilet. Blah.

I think guys are actually vain by nature lah. They just pretend. SO much for NOT being a meterosexual lah. Wei Sheng, admit it, you're secretly one.

Haha. Went to the neoprint shop. Looked around while they took their neoprint. Didn't want to take with them. SO MANY PEOPLE LIOW. THE NEOPRINT MACHINE NO PLACE ONE LAR. Haha.

Quite cool to look at chio bu's neoprints manx.

After that I rushed for my 9:30 show with my sister.WAH SEH. Praying hard all the way to tamp on the bus.

Lucky we took 969 bus.

Wei Sheng was like calming me down through the trip. I panic almost 2/3 of the trip manx. Haha.

=D Thanx wei sheng. I think i would have slammed my head against the window repeatedly if he wasnt there. haha.

Reached late. Rushed to the Century Square theatre with Wei Sheng. (THANX DEARIE FOR RUNNING AROUND WITH ME.) I blardy jay walked. OMGOMGOMG. Haha. Missed all the ads. I introduced my sis to weisheng. WEnt in. Suffered with the dumb Princess Diary plot for almost two hours. Died. Came out. WEnt home by bus. Blah. Tired like shit. Straight away go home and orh orh liow lah. SLEEP.

I have plans spreading for like the whole of this week (whatever is left of it) and well into next week. A 'brief' summary would be....

-GO WITH BELLE TO SI AUTOGRAPH SESSION today(groans)
-It's Wei Sheng's birthday tomorrow! haha. =P
-band concert on tuesday. recording on tuesday morning.
-Class chalet from 17th to 19th.
-Clean and Green carnival on 17th, 18th and 19th also.
-alot of msc stuff.

Omg. I think my clothes also never wash so fast lor.

**carrie**

Weisheng blogs (finally)
Saturday, November 13, 2004 3:59 PM

hey hey! yep! its me weisheng, like finally blogging after ages. well, i was thinking, since carrie had a very long day today and had to go sleep early, i might as well fill in.

anyway, since we never properly welcomed you to this site. WELCOME! to weisheng and carrie's blog. your prolly wondering where we got our blog address from. well, while coming up with a suitable blog address, "forever.blogspot" came up, the usual "carrieweisheng.blogspot" came up. but everything seemed too cliched. so carrie came up with "elevenkids.blogspot" (conveniently followed by "carriewillprobablygetcervicalcancer.blogspot.com", "anddieandleavetheelevenkidstobesupportedbyweisheng"
and "weishengwillprobablyneedtoearnalotofmoney.blogspot.com") which we went one round around other names before we finally picked straws for this one. now, your prolly wondering why eleven kids? well, that would come from my dream (more like unachivable hope) of getting 11 kids to make a soccer team! if compromised, there would always be 6 for bball team, or if overlyactive, there would always be room for 2 medics and a referee. to aim for that, our first child would be named "eleven" followed by "ten" and so on. spur would come at the sense of incompleteness, but discouragement would come in our kids killing us for these names. its a good stratergy anyway. =D

well just to summarise today after a while of introduction. i went for a one hour physics tutorial in the morning, and went jamming in the afternoon, and carrie came to watch! =D. actually we didn't really wanna practice much today, just mainly perfect our 3 songs that we might do for our graduation prom. well, i hope carrie was impressed thou! and yes, she should be! =D. after that, went to chill out at causeway point for dinner with carrie and my band, eating at our ulu corner at level6, and then going to take neoprints. if one of my band members actually scan it in i might post it here. carrie's not in it thou. would definitely have to take one with her during my birthday. then after that, took 969 from woodlands all the way to tampinies, with carrie praying hard all the way that she wouldn't be late for her movie with her sis. the one that screams at her if she's late. then took mrt all the way home.

i'm not really in the mood to really talk about everything today in detail thou. i realized i've moved to my "composition" writing style. quite boring. sheesh, should update more. nvm, i shall get my blogging skills back. if i actually had any. anyway i hope carrie's having sweet dreams now while i'm typing this blog in the middle of the night haha. peace!

_weisheng_

"is the joke cafe still there?" jue yi, zero infinity's drummer
"yup, still there. can't u see? B - U - S - K, joke." su, zero infinity's bassist.

Waking Up In The Morning
Friday, November 12, 2004 2:37 AM

Yea right. So much for good nights sleep.

Rudely awakened by...

Drilling from somewhere up there, plus lots of knock-knock-knocking. What the heck can they be hammering up there early on a Deepavali morning! Heck... It's a blardy public holiday... =X

Couldn't go back to sleep after that.

And we're supposed to be a graceful society? Explain the horrible noise early at 9am today lah. =C Why wake me up! I don't get good sleep like up to 10am anymore!

Oh... Whatever. I have like December to get rid of all that eye-bags. Yeah... I don't want to be a big fat panda. I mean... NOOO. Haha. I'd rather ship one all the way from Cheena lor.

Bus No. 9 uncle Eng Kiat is messaging me on MSN MESSENGER asking me why all chio and good girls all either taken or unavailable.

I reason it's because if they are good, they most probably are ugly or fat. Then... Guys... You dare to admit and say you'll accept them meh...? Some yesh la. But I doubt the majority will say yes. If she's chio, it means got queue. You taken a number liow mar? Taken liow ah. Too bad lah. The line very long mar... So have to wait lah! But if you don't want to wait... You can always try to ordinary girls what! What she bad about them? They come in variety somemore! Kind-hearted also have, bitchy also have. You want what they have, only thing they look more ordinary only what... =) Guys... You have got to be more flexible.

He also raised the issue about guys misunderstanding girls. Like he raised the issue when a girl (whom he probably likes) saw him signalling to the waiter for a drink but the waiter never came so she offered him her drink which she had already taken a sip from. He said that it gave him the wrong idea.

Hello... Yah lah. So girls sociable means available is it? So girls offer you drink from a cup she has taken a gulp from (just because got her saliva) means she not attached lah.

Very logical lor... -_-

I'm being sarcastic lah. Okay. I don't be so mean lah.

But really. Think for a minute. She be nice to you kena misunderstood. Poor thing.

And no... Sharing a drink or anything doesn't only apply to intimate couples. -_- In my mother's very constipated words, "AH DWEEE!"

Haha. Yah. I think Bus No.9 uncle is living in his 1965 past or something. Eh... He not yet born then leh... Hmmx... And I thought I was conservative.

**carrie**

Third TREATment.
Thursday, November 11, 2004 3:08 PM

Mr. JP treated us again. =P

Third freakin' time already.

He was actually treating the 3A and 3B class time pop-quiz winners (about 4 per class) to Swensen's ice cream, so Xiao Yun and I actually had no part in it. But... I think it's fated for the two of us to get treated. Because... Mr JP saw us looking for him to tell him we were let off early today from like 2 hours of killer bio so we could go for the Garden Roof Project Data Logging early and he decided that... "Hey, no prob. I'll treat you guys too."

Woah.

Third time already. Mr. JP has got a really generous streak lor. =) Haha. I feel very bad to be on the receiving end.

You don't want to know how the 3A peeps (all 4 of them) managed to persuade Mr. JP to shift from, 'ORDER SUNDAES ONLY" to a "MAIN COURSE UNDER 10 BUCKS". Salesmen lah all of them. Soedar (who was part of the winning group), Xiao Yun and I were like shifting uncomfortably in our red PVC seats all the way on the bus to Tampines Interchange. Wah seh... The 4 of them are pure pros lor. 100% Orchard Road talk-rot-businessmen lor. Crap manx! They manage to convince Mr. JP lor. Pros lah.

It got worse in Swensens because the four of them were like... Haha. They tried their best to aim for the most expensive sets. Wah... My heart bleeds for his wallet lor. Mr. JP poor thing lah he. I could practically feel the blood in my mouth as I chomped on my lunch lor. Mr. JP was like, "It's okay. I don't really think so much about the money I spend."

Wow. =D Spoken with style. He earns my utmost respect.

Xiao Yun and I were feeling so bad about being treated just because we were part of the very high profile Garden Roof Project that we both just ordered something and shared.

Cheese and Bananas. Literally.

Baked Fish Rice and a chocolate banana split. I still feel bad about being treated. =X

Came up to about $15 for the both of us. Not so bad lah... But even if Mr. JP didn't feel the pinch, I did.

Being the clumsy elephant that I was... I actually managed to spill my cup of water. Lucky it's just iced tap water... If not... POOR ZHONG BAO... Oppx. I soaked his bag. =P

Xiao Yun was like, "Now you know why you cannot be a waitress."

Yah man. No way...

Then she added, "Air stewardess also... Must have posture and not be a complete klutz."

I was like, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

So throughout the whole time at Swensens I was like sitting straight till it started hurting and trying VERY VERY hard not to knock anything over or trip. Heck. It's hard.

On the way back to school to start with the data logging, I asked Mr. JP about being an Air Stewardess (cos he worked in SIA before. His wife is also a stewardess there.). He told me that the minimum height requirement was for reaching the top compartments, NOT FOR SHOW.

Woot. Seems like hope.

He also added that personality was a key thing to take note of, and also good dressing when going for the interview.

Woah. So... Maybe there is hope for me yet.

Well... Went to extract the data from the data loggers from the three experimental classes. Cool stuff. Finished rather fast. Took a little look at Mr. JP's powerpoint presentation for the Clean and Green week exhibitions at the EXPO. We will have to present lah... Xiao Yun, Soedar and me. =X Haha. Mr. JP also wanted to record my voice as narration. He said tried, tested, proven (cos he heard me do a recording before) when the lady from the Roof Top Gardening company asked if my voice was nice. Blah. Haha. How pai seh manx.

The Clean and Green Week Carnival opening day ceremony will be on like the 17th (FIRST DAY OF CLASS CHALET lor...) and we will have to... *gasp* present to the Minister of something something. Don't know what lah. Have to prepare organized scripts. =S

Aiya... I am so looking forward to sleeping in! I LOVE DEEPAVALI.

Did I mention NO SCHOOL for me on FRIDAY because I have to go for media briefing. Cool stuff. =D

I like... I'll be missing like three hours of chem. BUT WHO GIVES A DAMN! Haha. I like the Roof Top Garden Project. SO fun.

** carrie **