Something Inside
Wednesday, March 02, 2005 1:33 PM
There's this tinny weeny voice inside urging me to head back to church. I mean, I'm no longer afraid to tell my dad in the face that I'm gonna go to church or anything, but there's just something holding me back.
Maybe I suddenly have this little voice inside because of Amanda's invitation to her church, but I don't really want to go to a huge church with over-zealous enthusiastic people who are so warm, they sizzle. I mean, I don't like the feeling of many many people coming up to me, trying to make me feel welcome. And her church is just the epitome of over-zealous. It's City Harvest... So I don't know how to tell this to little Moo Moo without her getting offended because I can tell she protects and defends her church alot. I mean, yeah. And I don't feel like going to my mom's church because after-all, I have become the known victim of my dad's power-hungry battles throughout the church. I know they mean well with all that empathy. Somehow, it's not what I want and I'm not someone who'll tell them real straight... Making friends all over again is hard.
Then I'll end up saying, maybe I'll go... ...
Soon.
But when?
And it all goes on again and again.
**carrie**
This blog contains the memories of two people who hated each other at first, managed to get to know each other anyway, got attached for a year plus and then decided to break up.
They are very different people especially in personality and even though they love(ed) each other very much, there are some things that because of love, you have to let go.
Just happened that it would have to be this relationship.
They now remain very very good friends. (Time will tell if this sentence actually holds.)
3rd October 2004 - 20th January 2006
His Wishlist Whiteboard
Plug-in Acoustic
More Polo-tees
some amazing sound system in my room
more time
large bed
large room
win lottery
basically everything else
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