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Symbols
Tuesday, March 22, 2005 11:54 AM

For Soedar it's a double edged sword. For bright sunny dispositioned Jean, it is naturally the sun. For Ting Yan it's a lightning bolt and for Clara it's a cloud.

I believe all these symbols show more than just a preference. I think it shows how a person thinks, feels and most importantly wish to grow. There is a lot to read from a simple symbol.

From his symbol, Soedar shows he wants to be a complete all-rounded person. A worthy weapon and opponent. From the symbol (I'm not sure, but this is how I read it) he shows a desire to become skilled and flexible. It also shows that he has a major weakness which is him being slightly more sharp and painful to the people around him who don't know how to approach or handle him.

Jean's symbol being the sun shows that she wants to be a strong sunny light, a source of great happiness and cheer to many people. She has a desire to bring to people joy and more importantly strength. She wishes to shine a light in her own life. It shows how much she is willing to serve. She manages to makes herself indispensable...

Ting Yan's lightning bolt shows that he wants to be seen, and many a time is accompanied by loud thunderous noise in order to be heard. He wants attention. He is imbalanced like lightning.

The cloud Clara has chosen as her symbol goes to show how she traps herself in a cycle of events. Clouds may be silent but they grow heavier and heavier from water like she does with emotions and in the end rains down on others. Yet when a cloud has finished with it's raining, it accumulates again. She yearns to be free like a cloud but fails to notice that a cloud binds her to a vicious cycle and in turn because of this cycle she wants freedom again. Freedom for her is shortlived.

What is my symbol?

There was a point of time it was a very blur looking flying squid because I didn't wish for complication. Simplicity and escape seemed attractive thus the subconcious like towards squids. However some point in secondary two I suddenly grew attached to rabbits. I wonder if all this is really subconcious. Suddenly liking an animal, colour or object. Is it because of some new thoughts in your head? Is it because of some change in outlook towards life that spurs on this suddenly liking? Hmm...

A rabbit is vibrant, agile, yet docile, meek. Most importantly it's a creature that yearns companionship more than anything. It has qualities I admire. Being agile is something I never really was and being vibrant and fun seems like everything I want to be. Of course cuteness is another plus point lah... The very interesting thing I found out about rabbits recently would be that it needs companionship. I didn't know this at first when I started to like rabbits. Is this some subconcious thing? Haha. It shows a lot about me... It's like by uncovering my symbol- the bunny, I see for myself what I yearn to become. Docile and meek are two words that strike a bell inside. I've always wanted to be a housewife.

Maybe things you're attracted to in life are all the same. They are all very different from what you have been, and they possess everything you wish to be or become. This will explain the whole, "Opposites attract" theory. Heh. Really answers the theory. So when you say, "I can't see how we could ever get along being so different!"... It's kinda like fake thing to say. Since I believe we're all attracted to people that are extremely different from us and who will do things we seldom do because deep down inside we wish we could do them too...

Haha. Interesting self discovery blog entry. Sheesh. It's not making much sense... But anyway...

:) If you haven't noticed, I've changed the layout. It's a layout smothered in grey tones and a splatter of primary colours here and there. Nice? I needed a creative juice boost you see... Couldn't control myself. HEH. It's back to homework straight after dinner.

**carrie**