I would LOVE to be vegan after knowing the horrid, gruesome, heart wrenching truth. But I cannot give up eggs or beef (especially beef) and sweet smelling chicken, and have you even eaten pasta without bacon! Oh gawd... I can't BE VEGAN or VEGETARIAN.

Why not?

WHY NOT!?

Vegan means your main source of protein is from beans and tofu which is also bean anyway, and you cannot eat animal related products which means practically NO MORE GUMMY BEARS (because theres GELATIN in some or most which is from COW) or chocolates (because theres milk in it) and every other yummy wrummy foods you're probably eating now.

The agony!

How can ANYONE SURVIVE without meat oh glorious, glorious, meat, and eggs and milk... I'm a dairy product lover... AND NO CHEEEESE? Oh noo... Torture! Torture! Torture! TORTURE!

So I cannot be Vegan.

And I cannot be vegetarian even though it means I can eat eggs and cheese and everything else without meat in it... Its still... Agonizingly excrutiatingly painful! I mean what? I'm to eat cauliflower, lettuce, and long beans everyday? I can't live like this! CORRECTION! I can't survive like this!

Yes. I'm a selfish wart with half a kind heart (if its still alive that is).

Its such a pity that I love eggs and dairy products so much... Since young I've lived practically on only meat and meat alone (and eggs of course) while my sister was the veggie bin... So it would be like not a problem if my sister were to convert to VEGANISM (is that what you call it) or VEGETARIANITY (sounds wrong... hmmm... ). For me to convert into a vegan or even just a vegetarian would be like to ask me to jump from one end of the freaking long Great Wall of China to the other end. IMPOSSIBLE almost.

I say almost only because Adidas has this ad that says "Impossible is nothing." So yeah. Almost.
But back to the point... Yeah. Whats the horrifying truth thats rocking the foundation of my faith in carnivourous meat eating love?

I'd say NC-16. Wouldn't want the little kiddies to lose faith in meat and farmers now do we? Yes so 16 and above move on, if not, aiya, if you're emotionally and psychologically scarred for life... ... Its utterly sad! I'm just exaggerating! But its really bad. :X It pretty much made me so upset and guilty that I eat meat 85% of the day... So little kiddies, move along now. Theres a tiny 'X' box up there so if you're reading on and feel like sick and everything, you know where to click.

The worst case in milk producing cows. And I'm talking about this because its closest to my heart. (I LOVE MILK!)

For your info (because some of my friends are clueless about this) the female cow can only give milk and the male cow is not called a male cow, its called a bull and yes, its the kind you see on TV being waved at by a red piece of cloth which probably makes it mad because you're making him look stupid by waving a piece of cloth at it.

I asked TY, how do you think cows give milk?

And naturally he said just squeeze her udder and WOAH-LAA, milk oozes out into a metal bucket.
*TEH TEK!* WRONG HOR! WRONG!

If this was a bio question that'll give you only half a mark out of twelve or something.

Heres the real deal.

Milk cows are the saddest mothers on earth. On this planet. Even in living existence. You think milk just comes out from cows like theres no tomorrow, that its naturally occuring substance found in a cow udder right?
Yeah. I thought that happened too. Until the truth hit me in the face.

WRONG WRONG WRONG.

The cow is forced to become pregnant, only when a calf is born THEN there is MILK! If only things were so simple, so peaceful.

Then the calf is taken forcefully (yet again... brutal aren't we?) away from the mother and the cow spends her days calling out for her lost child day in and out. What she doesn't know is that her little baby is going to the butchers as VEAL. :X Sad isn't it?

Then when milk supply runs out. Wah. Guess what? We force her to be pregnant again.
If you think about it, what we're doing is almost like making a slave get raped repeatedly just so that we can take her children and her milk. Quite disgusting right?

And we condone all this just because shes just a cow. Shes not human. Shes just a cow...
SIGH. And I'm just too selfish to do my part.

I can't give up milk. Even after knowing the brutal painful sad truth I still don't have that little push inside to REALLY STOP drinking milk. A part of me tells me that even if I give it up others will still go on drinking milk and consuming beef and enjoy their wonderful hamburgers while I give up on great food just because I feel sad for cows. But another part of me tells me that at least I won't keep feeling guilty, I won't be contributing to the cow milking industry or whatever they call that industry. Oh gawd... But still... I fall to the dark side. I still drink milk. MILK. MILK. MIIIILLLLKKK...

OKAY! OKAY!

I think I'll take the first step. Soymilk and only soymilk now. Okay, I can't do that. Maybe I'll cut down my milk intake. Once a week? Then slowly I'll wean myself off milk. And then I'll just take Soybean every day when I need protein and calcium and all those minerals and stuff.

I'm still guilty, but a bit less guilty.

Oh well. I'm human and imperfect but at least I'm trying. At least I'm trying...
So now your innocent idea or lack of idea in fact (cos alot of us know and alot of us pretend not to) is soiled by this revealation. Everything isn't as simple as it seems as we grow older. In fact it keeps getting more and more complicated.

I don't like complication.

Not one bit,
carrie