a nightmare would be a life without you

Monologuing & My PS II
Tuesday, August 16, 2005 12:20 PM

I'm itching for a swim and chocolate chip cookies. Yes. Both at the same time.

Its no time to be thinking of having a prolonged bath tub experience, Carrie! There is NO TIME for a batch of fresh hot cookies while your at it too. You have to freaking mug! Mug! MUG!

Gawdamnit. I'm freaking schizophrenic at the moment.

Must be all that slacking this afternoon. Felt like whipping up my playstation II console. Tempted I was, and temptation I took to. I'm regretting it now, but whats the use of regret. A dose of long overdue Final Fantasy was great. My brain cells seem to be finally working right. :) RPGs do wonders to the braindead, juiced sucked mind. Especially SQUARESOFT/SQUARE ENIX RPGs.

Felt like RPGing because of the 3 revision tests I had today. Everyone was fretting about how they'd do. All I was thinking was that as long as I knew what I knew and learnt from my mistakes during the test, who blardy cares if I fail it or not.

Yeah. Until I reached home. Then I started stoning and then I picked up the PS II console, and THEN I committed cardinal sin number 1 for a National Exam Candidate. I played my loyal dust-collecting PS II (FF9 lah, the temptation was TOO great...) when my prelims are just poking their heads around the corner. My gawd. I need to wake up.

I am awake.

I think.

I'm not stressed. Don't think so. :(

Even if I am, I don't know why I should be... ...

Maybe I should load up on the cookies and cream ice cream tubs, and maybe I'll go save up for a trip to the pool or something. I mean, I can't be studying all the time. I'll go all zonked out and burnt to a crisp before the PRELIMS can even say "I'm COMING DARLING. HWEH HWEH!"

Excuses Carrie, excuses.

Whatever. My life, my rules. I'll just pay the price Conscience. I'll pay the price. I'll study okay. I WILL. Like sheesh.

Yes. Its true, I'm officially schizo... Save me.

I think by the time O's are over, I'd be schizo, anorexic, bullimic, super duper extremely short sighted, pale and maybe lacking in Vitamin D. I'd probably develop rickets from the lack of exposure to sun, but then again...
Who knows.

Rules are meant to be broken, so Carrie, loosen up.

Yeah yeah... Thats what it always [temptation] says. If it had to sit for a freaking National examination and failed it, see whether it still dares to even mutter the word "rules".

Whatever. Okay, thats settled.

I'll just be schizo, anorexic, bullimic, super duper extremely short-sighted, pale and lacking in Vitamin D for like a couple of months. Hard work pays off right.

I'll go swimming after O levels. And I'll make choc chip cookies when I'm free during those post O Level holidays.

For now... Hey schizophrenia!

Weirded out,
carrie

BTW: I do notice I'm growing pretty weird. WAIT. I correct that. I do notice I'm growing weirder. Haha. I'm an obsessed Zero Infinity Fangirl! -_-" I actually named my FF9 characters after ZI members (short forms of their names)... Uh huh... And I renamed Princess Garnet to myself. Haha. :X Yes. I am THAT crazy!

Hoho.

I named the really huge knight CALEB, I named Zidane the monkey thief BEN (:P), I named Vivi the cute black magician FIE, and I named Princess Garnet a.k.a Lead character along side Zidane, CARRIE. What the heck. I'm freaking insane. :P Yeah. I know. Su's missing. But I bet another character will come along soon enough. :)