The Result, The Product
Tuesday, August 09, 2005 10:57 AM
I am the result of an over zealous country's enthusiastic sexual education. :)
IVF. Only IVF.
I have the "SEX IS BAD FOR YOU" ingrained in my poor mind. I've been brainwashed and now I live in mortal fear that one day I have to do 'it' to have kids because I really want kids.
This kind of came up today when I was talking with TY and XY at the KOPITIAM near her house.
Shucks. Thanks to all the crap we hear about pregnant girls, about AIDS and about weird weird things that cast *** as the evil thing, the most evil, the epitome of sin, I'm now afraid that THE 'DONG FANG' (wedding night) day will come... OH NO. And I SO like kids.
TY was like, "You have that weird mental problem ah?"
Yeah. I have that weird mental problem. I'm the product of education. Sexual education to be exact. And I'm a successful case. At least no hanky panky for me...! And plus, whats better than a girl who wants to grow up, contribute to the country's declining birthrate and at a HIGHER COST TOO? The money from IVF for my eleven to-be kids will be able to like probably enough to fund a WHOLE THIRD WORLD COUNTRY. The sexual education system has finally produced its FIRST successful product...
Dearie has something against test tube kids though. :X Whats wrong with kids in test tubes? They're cute! And I don't have to fu*k to get them! :) Its a good idea! VERY. I like the idea of test tube babies.
I mean, marriage is ultimately so that kids can be made right? So IVF also can what...
Oh dear...
I'm so freaking protective of myself. I have this fear in my brain, about one day my husband will be intimate with me to have kids. And ahh... Its a dilemma.
I hate people other than my dearie to touch me in anyway. I hate people putting their hands on my shoulders or anything. And I hate it when people flirt with me because I HATE IT LAH. No messing my hair. Its like keep your hands to yourself. But I know sometimes that they don't mean it that way, but I DON'T LIKE. :P I'm only for my dearie.
FANTASTIC SINGAPOREAN EDUCATION. You produced me! A weird unsociable creature who will make the perfect housewife for the posessive husband. :X Except that the husband will probably have an affair since I have a mortal fear of sex... -_-"
I'm a problem.
BIG PROBLEM. How do you handle a girl with the ambition to have kids if she doesn't want to go through the 'natural biologically programmed process' to do it. Or at least thinks its too evil to do anyway... I'm a monster and the education system created me. :X
AHHHHHHHHHHH.
Maybe I'm just way too young at the moment to think that sex will ever be enjoyable. Gawd. I'm still a monster.
GAWD! I'm a monster (monster, monster, monster...), carrie
This blog contains the memories of two people who hated each other at first, managed to get to know each other anyway, got attached for a year plus and then decided to break up.
They are very different people especially in personality and even though they love(ed) each other very much, there are some things that because of love, you have to let go.
Just happened that it would have to be this relationship.
They now remain very very good friends. (Time will tell if this sentence actually holds.)
3rd October 2004 - 20th January 2006
His Wishlist Whiteboard
Plug-in Acoustic
More Polo-tees
some amazing sound system in my room
more time
large bed
large room
win lottery
basically everything else
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