Something That Isn't There
Monday, August 15, 2005 5:46 AM
I just feel that something is missing, lacking in me or my life recently.
I've been having weird feelings when I pass by certain places... Not so much dejavu but more like a nagging feeling about something, I don't know what.
I'm like totally not myself when I'm with dearie recently. I whine alot and I usually don't do that, that often. Not around dearie anyway. And I feel weirded out sometimes. I don't know whats wrong. And when I'm with Clara or TY, I just feel a bit strange too. Its like I'm not myself and I'm not in control.
I don't think anyone thinks theres anything different with me... But I just feel it coursing through my bloodstream. I'm not who I feel I am. Its like a part of me is gone and its changing how I behave, how I feel, how i respond.
I just can't put a finger to whats wrong. I just can't recognize the problem.
Its driving me crazy.
And I even dreamt of something I know is weird but I can't remember what it is. I can't remember alot of things. I still can't.
Its like I'm feeling... LOST. Yeah... Thats the word to describe it... Lost... And I seriously wonder why.
Lost, carrie
"Who are you and what have you done to my Carrie?" - Dearie said this once sometime ago.
This blog contains the memories of two people who hated each other at first, managed to get to know each other anyway, got attached for a year plus and then decided to break up.
They are very different people especially in personality and even though they love(ed) each other very much, there are some things that because of love, you have to let go.
Just happened that it would have to be this relationship.
They now remain very very good friends. (Time will tell if this sentence actually holds.)
3rd October 2004 - 20th January 2006
His Wishlist Whiteboard
Plug-in Acoustic
More Polo-tees
some amazing sound system in my room
more time
large bed
large room
win lottery
basically everything else
disclaimer
Certain name(s) have been changed to protect the privacy of the person(s) mentioned in blog entries.
This is done in view of the number of people who are able to access the blog. Also views expressed on this blog are usually done at the spur of the moment.
Forgive the writer (specifically carrie) should she unknowingly offend. Excuse her. However like every other blogger in this blogosphere,
she is still accountable for her blog entries.
