a nightmare would be a life without you

Touched.
Friday, September 30, 2005 11:49 AM

I got a mini packet of M&Ms from Mrs Lin. So did everyone else in class... That was really touching... That she got us all chocs just to give us a bit of joy and everything for Children's Day. I've never seen a teacher so intent on making her students feel less stressed... :)

Felt really happy and pumped to do my emaths and I did a few papers... I did this year's Junyuan Prelim paper for emaths and I was shocked! I could do the questions! At least for Paper 1... I was so... pleasantly surprised really. I felt like I could do something! Its been a long time since I felt like this... Like I could DO maths... After all that failing, I never really imagined I could even pass or do well for my maths paper.

Had maths remedial today. Stayed longer than I initially intended. :)

I like doing maths. At my own pace though.

Something caught my ears today. Mrs Lin was reading the Straits Times today and she came across an article and she read the title out loud.

"Why do men with pretty wives still have affairs?"

And Jenson went berserk trying to make his point heard. I literally sniggered! He's at it again! And he keeps saying I'm like a feminist... Man... He should get it straight... He's pretty much against the whole women thing too. :X

Blah blah blah.

Oh! And prom is confirmed. Its on 29th November? At the Hilton. And I'm like dressless. :X

My mom isn't really a gown/dress kind of person and she hasn't had a company dinner for a hundred hundred years...

Blah. Whatever. Must pay 50 bucks by MONDAY! :X NO MONEY!

O levels... ... ZZZZzzzZZZ...

Yay its Thursday,
carrie

Malfunctioning Machine
Saturday, September 17, 2005 12:53 PM

My Creative (NOTE THE BRAND!) player is malfunctioning. And less than 6 months after I bought it too. I don't have the receipt so... I don't know if I can get the warranty change or repair service. Its a really silly rule in my opinion. What the heck. I registered for the warranty like when I bought it so whats with the proof of purchase!? Shucks. And I have to make my way all the way to JURONG too. :C

I know I used to be biased about Creative and I was reformed for a while, but I guess my biasness was not without reason!

Initially I heard about all the stuff about Creative players giving the owners problems just after warranty and not long after buying... So I didn't have a glorious impression of our own home grown brand.

But because I put alot of thought and decided that it was cheaper to get a Creative player. So I set aside my bias and went for it.

Now less than 6 months after purchasing it... It malfunctions - shutting down after every song... I HATE CREATIVE NOW!

So what if they're home grown?

I have pride in my country. I like the cleanliness... The cute laws and rules... And how safe it makes me feel at night on my way home and I've always been a supporter of local stuff like LOCAL BANDS for instance...

But... Creative is bad news!

Its low quality for cheap prices... This shouldn't be the case really...

Sheesh!

GAH,
carrie

Insanity
Friday, September 16, 2005 1:02 PM

Intensive mugging begins like on Monday... Actually more likely weekend cause I needa check out some maths stuff and make sure I've got loads of questions ready on Monday!

Insanity... I'm actually playing MAPLESEA... My goodness. Lol.

One very funny thing about Maple is that there are more guys than girls. :X Haha... And when there are more guys... Alot of them are... rather... haha.

I think I'm one of the sunniest and happiest people in Maple. I don't care if people KS me. I don't care if people loot my items... And I am the peacemaker... Haha... :P

I like Maple because I'm seriously treating it like a game... Unlike my sister who treats it as reality. Haha.

Anyway... Will blog tomorrow probably. Cos I've had prelims all week, couldn't really find time to play maple and blog and study. :P

Lots of Love,
carrie

I HAVE TO BLOG
Monday, September 12, 2005 12:51 AM

what is weisheng doing 53 minutes after midnight, supposedly planning to do his gp but end up trying to blog instead? i am so going to try to finish gp homework tomorrow. these few days have been hectic, sleeping only 8 hours a day kills me. i need more sleep. swimming, cycling, watching gigs, gigs, sleeping, its like my body is trying to reform itself. and here i am blogging.

let me try answering the question from the first paragraph. i am trying to improve my english. its prolly, probably, because my english is getting more screwed as time passes. i think its because i haven't been writing enough, and reading enough. so, after thinking it though, i'm deciding to blog. its all part of the full reformation programe designed by whoever is controlling the other inactive 95% of my brain. congrats, your doing a good job, lets hope all this works. secondly is i wouldn't want this blog to end up being www.elevenkidswithnodaddy.blogspot.com. its not like i'm invisible or anything, just been busy.

oh yea, holidays were great, fully packed, with jamming and all. went to esplanade to watch gigs straight 3 days in a row, first day with dearie and jue, then with su and fi, then with everyone else, on fri, sat, sun. its power pop weekend, filled with happy tunes but actually somehow kinda boring if you listen to it too much. some songs are pretty catchy but you know its kinda old for the new generation. not alot of techniques to gain too, but some tips to gather the next time i jam.

went swimming or tanning with hong seng landy darryl and andre on friday. finally happened because i finally saved hong seng's number into my phone book. no more "oh your asking me to swim? who is this?" from me to him, after happening three times and the third for him having to personally call me. don't really save numbers. went to some ulu area at some weird condo with semi-d's. noone's there, pool's like a quarter or the normal sized one. swam quite a bit, got myself quite a tan, right now its noticably red, abit tanner, but had to suffer burns for the past 2 days.

okay, gotta sum up, cuz i gotta sleep, there goes my gp. at least i got my chem done, and i'm blogging. okay the best thing about the holidays is the fact i got to spend more time with carrie. she got her prelims on and i think its really sweet she can still go out with me to watch gigs and movies. won't be able to see her much once the o level started. its gonna be a year soon, and a year ago i was just going through the same situation as her. oh well i know my dearie's a smart girl, gonna do well.

And now i am going to sleep. i am going to force myself to blog tomorrow about gp stuff. yea like, erm. some president or something, or some war or sumthing. and i am going to use some mighty profound words. and quote from some very famous politician. just give me abit more time to force myself to start reading newspapers. mass comms in uni here i come!

_weisheng_

Plagued By A BAD CASE of Anger
Sunday, September 11, 2005 9:01 AM

I have a BIG WEAKNESS. And that big weakness is that I don't know what my weakness is exactly. Thats a bit of a paradox, but hey, I'm a girl! I'm supposed to be a question mark.

I quarrelled with dearie over some Taiwanese 'reality programme' hosted by Xiao Zhu and Hei Ren... He said it was despicable for them to air the PI process of hunting down the unfaithful boyfriend. I thought that the man was equally despicable... And then it started from there.

Of course I knew the programme was a piece of sh-it that infringed on privacy and stuff, but I felt so sad, and sorry for the girl! She was cheated on! CHEATED ON! What a jerk!

I was glad they aired him on TV... He deserved it... But then again did he?

After talking to dearie... Although I hate to admit it, I admit it now. The show is a little or rather VERY overboard... Oh well...

Gah,
carrie

OH MY GOODNESS!
Friday, September 09, 2005 6:32 AM

My dad got a 10MB internet connection. I don't know what that means technically, but I know in layman's terms... ITS FASTER THAN NORMAL! Yay!

I'm going out to jalan jalan with dearie first... So... Haha. BLOG WHEN I COME HOME!

Later!

Lots of Love,
carrie

Yum yum.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005 1:24 PM

I think ICE CREAM is the best thing ever to have been invented. So screamy creamy delicious... So cold and comforting... Oh my goodness... BLISS!

I'm having my MAGNUM milk chocolate smothered with nuts! :D Woo hoo... Yum yum...

I only wish I could have shared it with dearie. :X But I still have one stick! So I'll keep it until I can share with him.

Heh. Now, just resist temptation to eat it up anytime soon.

Recently my parents both bought ice cream... I suspect they're trying to outdo each other... But... Hehe... Yum.

My mom bought the rainbow fruity Matcool ice cream popsicles. My dad got the Magnum. Sadly, my dad wins this round... Lol.

And theres something about Chao Xia Mian that I suddenly like.

This is weird...

I used to haaatteee hokkien mee... But recently, I don't know. I've sorta fallen in love with it... The tangy lime juice on the mee... The sweet sauce thats just slightly sourish from the juice... The strong taste of the different noodles... Oh my gosh... Just heaven. And I used to REALLY HATE hokkien mee.

Same as IRIS by Goo Goo Dolls. I used to not really think it was that nice. Now I can't help but listen to it every time I switch on my player.

My taste surely has changed. And I feel so weird that it has.

Weird.

I missed dearie alot all day again. And I flipped through and read a bit of my textbooks. But these days I can't control it... I'm reading a lot a lot faster but it tires me out... And I end up feeling really really wasted just by reading too fast and I CAN'T CONTROL IT!

I have to force myself to read slowly and that tires me too.

Oh gosh. I really am changing.

I also spent my day looking at these old stuffs I have in a special pouch... They contain little things that... Make up my past. Its been so long and without noticing I've forgotten so much about it.

And I also realized I have a lot of expired gum... I never ate them because I treasured it so much. And without noticing I forgot about it. Haha. And now its just another piece of my past. Weird! Its like... Eww...! Lol.

I was really weird then.

And I'm weirder now.

But I like myself more now...

I think dearie likes himself more now than in the past. :D Although he never tells me or doesn't wish to talk about his past because he probably doesn't want to think about him much, I know he's a much better person now than before and I'm proud of who he is now... Very proud... Love ya dearie... *muawah*

Lots of Love,
carrie

Fly Infested
7:45 AM

I had twelve hours of good sleep! But I missed my Literature class because of that! Man... Hanging out with Jill yesterday was great! :) We always have so much to talk about... And I was so tired yesterday! I really like talking to Jill... Haha. So weird that we click so well!

Dearie got me cute gifts! Nice dangly earrings, bracelet and a very sweet anklet... But I lost my anklet yesterday! :C I'm so upset with myself! Arghh! Everything I wear on my ankles always seem to get lost! Its like I can't wear anything there or something! ARGH! :C And I so liked the costume jewellery dearie got for me... :C

Aww...

My home is fly infested... I killed 5 today in a fit of anger but there are so many more! I swear I don't know where they come from!!!! No matter how many times I clear the bin they still come...

Dearie is out at a rock wall having fun with naughty cute kids. I want to have fun with cute naughty kids! :C

Gah...

Lots of Love,
carrie

The Jealousy Test
Sunday, September 04, 2005 5:32 AM

Its our eleventh month. A lucky lucky month! Heh. At least for us... Buwahaha. We settled our problems at least for now... And I'm really impressed at how well Dearie handled my emotional outburst yesterday... :) I love my dearie!

I took a jealousy test because I know I'm a jealous freak... and I got... 41.27%! I knew I was a jealous freakk! The sypnopsis is as follows:

You are not a jealous person, but sometimes can be (Oh gosh. BIG SURPRISE!)
Occasionally, you over react to situation (Okay. Pretty right on.)
Most of the time, you trust the people around (Yeah... Generally.)
Jealousy will not be a major issue in relationship, but you might want to improve on your self-esteem (I KNOW THIS ONE. Lol... I'm not very confident of my ability to make people like me and stuff...)

Lalala.... :)

I can't wait to meet dearie later on after his CIP... He's handling kids (aww... I'm so jealous! I want to handle kids!) at Yishun or something...

Haha. I love my dearie!

Happy eleventh month dearie!

Lots of Love for my dearie,
carrie

...
Saturday, September 03, 2005 1:03 PM

If you're disappointed. I am too. In fact... Very disappointed.

We don't have to agree... But you don't have to make me seem like a baby when I don't see eye to eye.

Its been weighing on me so long. Sometimes I wish I never brought it up. Why jeopardize our relationship over a stupid fear. I shouldn't have ever said anything. Because some truths are better left inside.

You're dissapointed...

I'm devastated.

When everyone thinks I'm weird... I don't need someone I treat so closely, even more closely than my parents and my sister, to tell me that again. To make it seem set in stone that I am weird.

And when I'm trying so hard to grow up, I don't need someone I love to tell me that I'm still a little kid.

What I need is someone to accept that for now, thats how I am... ... And that it will one day work out for the best...

too much to ask?
carrie

You Can Do IT... Play Bass DAMMIT!
8:58 AM

I saw the cute DIY learn it yourself book at YAMAHA (Tampines) while I was with TY and XY waiting for the rain to stop pouring and drizzle instead before heading home.

The title is cute! Haha. "You can DO IT... Play BASS DAMMIT!" Haha. Oh man. I laughed and couldn't stop. Its freaking ex though. I don't think I can fork out like 50 odd bucks just to get a book that will most probably lie dusty in my drawer... Plus... What the heck... Even if I DO get the book, I still gotta get a bass guitar somehow.
I already got a keyboard at home, which I practise on now and then (CHOPSTICKS!). I've got my dusty trusty blue acoustic which is dusty because its out of tune and I don't know how to tune it back! :X And I bet my mom will scream if I get a bass guitar. Not that I have enough money to get one.

I was an idiot again during LUNCH at BK. I ate the fish burger AGAIN. Gosh... I sometimes really make a fool of myself and I so TOTALLY don't mean to do it! I took away the drinks on the tray and TY was like... diow... The lady serving was like, "Eh, that girl your friend ah?" Then she had to repack another tray. OPPS! Sorry lady!
I don't know. I tend to make myself look pretty stupid most of the time when I'm hanging out with TY and XY. Too comfortable I guess...

But something good happened. I WON TWO GAMES OF TAITI on TY's phone. Heh! Great achievement! Ahah. I used to lose all the time! :) I and learnt how to beat the java game using the double method! Heheheh.
I'm in a good mood. Very. I have an irritating itch in my throat... ARGH. Thats the only downside of the moment. Other than that I'm feeling really good.

They changed the moblog blogging interface. I preferred the old one, but this is more detailed... Hmm. Whatever. Doesn't make much a difference. A good thing is I can manipulate the html easily now... :D But I'm TOO LAZY to.

I feel like going shopping... I want to get a nice jacket, but it'll set me back alot! Not considering I don't have my one week break allowance! (Thats like 30 bucks deducted!) So I guess shopping is a bit out of... Yeah...

I'm looking forward to Jilly popping by my house for a movie marathon this Sunday! WOO! Girls day in. :) I like hanging with Jill. She's nice to talk to, and fun to boot. And shes seldom depressive when I get to see her. Can't wait.

Lots of LOVE,
carrie

P.S: I PASSED ALL MY RECENT CHEM REVISION TESTS! One C5 (2004 prelim), one C6 (Test 7), one A2 (Acids, Bases and Salts)! Congratulate me! Haha.

Chillin' for a moment.
Thursday, September 01, 2005 9:05 AM

After yesterday's ordeal, I'm all better. Rest is your best painkiller. Trust me on this one.
I was screaming at my sister over nothing (my pen actually), I had this growing tendency to fling stuff around and punch my pillow lots, I was crying and everything, not hungry one minute, binging the next, puking food up, lethargic when talking...

I'm glad its over.

Went to sleep and it went away. Thats a good thing about me I guess. I don't let things run overnight. And like I said, rest is your if not my, best painkiller. Everything fades away when you get enough of it.

So what if the paper was depressing. PAPERS I mean. So what if I'm SO gonna screw my prelim... No time to sulk about it... Time to dig into the paper mountain and start working my brains. I know I've said this thousands of times, but I'm serious... Its a pia to the finish for my o levels to get into Ngee Ann Mass Comms. I'm making sure I'm gonna make my dreams come true. Okay, not dreams, but I screw up my prelims, I'm not gonna screw up my life. Time to focus. Time to focus. I can't afford to screw up ONE MORE TIME.

Its a second chance. You've felt what you've felt Carrie. You don't want to burn out one day before a major paper. Work starts now. Rest starts now. Balance that.

Nerded mentally,
carrie