It Ends Here, for now or something
Saturday, January 21, 2006 7:51 AM
So I don't hate him. And really glad I made that phone call because we usually don't ever find our flaws until someone is brave enough to point them out. We don't erase the flaws from our minds... Its just that... We've grown so used to it that we kinda forget they're there.
I never noticed myself doing that fake thing online. I don't know, maybe fake isn't the right word. Or maybe it is. Whatever it is... He didn't like it. I wasn't the same person on the phone, online or in person and the person he loved was the me when he talks face to face with.
The same way I didn't like how (really!) he sometimes was very slip-shod. Its true Wei Sheng. The way you do things make me feel like you don't really care about certain things. I didn't like how you always thought only you were right and how you would always be right.
He told me that after a bit of prodding yesterday. And even though it would have helped (logically) ALOT to have told me this earlier on instead of saying we were cooling off cos things were complicated. Okay I admit I'm pretty complicated. But I know for sure that if he told me that bunch of things when we were gonna cool off... I'd snap his head off or something. I realize that sentence reads two ways. Anyway...
He's right about me being a better friend. I prolly will make a better friend. (: My friends all think I'm sweet! :D I think you guys get the drift. Even though we loved each other, and maybe still do... Its just not working out at the moment so we're like finally single and free again.
I dunno how much he ever loved me, how much it will last and I don't want to think about how much, how long anyway... It ends here for now. Just friends.
This blog contains the memories of two people who hated each other at first, managed to get to know each other anyway, got attached for a year plus and then decided to break up.
They are very different people especially in personality and even though they love(ed) each other very much, there are some things that because of love, you have to let go.
Just happened that it would have to be this relationship.
They now remain very very good friends. (Time will tell if this sentence actually holds.)
3rd October 2004 - 20th January 2006
His Wishlist Whiteboard
Plug-in Acoustic
More Polo-tees
some amazing sound system in my room
more time
large bed
large room
win lottery
basically everything else
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